Life and death collide
im empty inside
vanished is everything of meaning
numbness becomes feeling
im left screaming silence like a lifeless being
staring into nothing
speaking as if someone were listening
Life and death collide
im empty inside
vanished is everything of meaning
numbness becomes feeling
im left screaming silence like a lifeless being
staring into nothing
speaking as if someone were listening
I never liked fall or winter. The cloudy days, cold rain, and bare branches always left me in a depressing haze… but recently I had a change of heart. Leave it to me to take something simple and complicate it with deep quotes and over-thinking, but sometimes my over-thinking leads to a positive change.
During my walk a few days ago, I was gazing at bare branches and the most obvious thing dawned on me: It’s only a season… The trees shed their leaves so new ones will grow. Someone will be like… um, DUH… but it was a revelation to me. I always knew this, but never completely understood. This season is not a sad end, but a moment of transition. Then another light turned on.. This applied to my life as well. Moments of loss or emptiness were only a stepping stones to something new… possibly even better than what was before. Sometimes living in the moment is a painful thing to do, but it’s not so bad when you see things for what they are.
The past: Gone
The present: A moment of transition
The future: Unwritten
Happy 2012.
Empty
Vague
no feeling at all
tiny fragments of life plastered on the wall
SMASHING
CRASHING
broken they fall
NO LIGHT
NO DARKNESS
no feeling at all
Not really alive
Just breathing
Like I slipped into a coma
Still walking
Nothing new
No feeling
Not content here
I have dreams
Faith is light that guides me
Lets me see beyond the ordinary
I take leaps
Cause one day
I’ll defy gravity
Thank you for making me strong
I learnt to love those who do me wrong
I was torn down to rise
My heart beats with new life
My song is being written
Some lines I may never understand
but battles made me strong
Made me who I am