I’m going to be honest, I’m frustrated with my work lately. I love it, but something about it has me restless. It feels too repetitive and unoriginal. I don’t know. I’ve only been dabbling in photography for a few months, but I’m ready to do something out of the box. Something that just me.
I was wishing I had more materials, but then I thought, my lack of materials is just an opportunity to be creative. Suddenly there’s no limit. I don’t need a specific plan or style, just me and my camera. So cheers to stepping outside of my four walls… this is just the beginning.
As some of you may know from following my posts, I’ve been in a dark place lately. I won’t say I fell into one, because life is a rollercoaster filled with ups and downs. Each phase is only momentary and the wheel keeps spinning. Where am I going with this? Well, I recently wrote a poem called Never Alone. I usually don’t discuss the meaning of my poems or what inspired me to write them, but I wanted to this time.
If you haven’t read this piece the title speaks for itself. One of the lines reads “In darkness I may tread, but never alone”. I want to talk about it because the inspiration behind it is so different that what you may think. It’s not about anything or anyone. In fact, I wrote this piece I was feeling the exact opposite of the way I described. I was alone just thinking about my life when I realized, I was tired of being depressed. I was tired of feeling sorry for myself. I was tired of writing dumb rants about black holes and ghosts. I have nothing against dark pieces, (sometimes you need to release those feelings), but Lawd knows ive written my share.
So after this realization, I decided to muster up a little positivity. I barely thought before my pencil hit the paper and I began to imagine myself (or anyone else really) in a better place. It was entirely unrealistic, but I can honestly say after I wrote it I felt better. It didn’t fix anything, but it brought a little light to the darkness, like single star in the sky. So if you’re in a dark place today, I hope you are inspired to rise. Dont worry, eventually you will. Life is filled with seasons. There are seasons to to be happy and seasons to grieve, but sometimes you can lighten the process simply by picking yourself up.
Thank you all for following me and for your encouraging comments. ~Lady T
How you hold me
how you love me so
in darkness i may tread but never alone
what silent peace this is
what life you give
i may never understand it all
how you do what you do
i may never know
Your assignment for the day. ~Lady T
the voices are against me
so is time
i grasp with my hands
and drift with my mind
away from a world warped by lies
and the passing of time
I’ve always loved how the city looks at night… all the lights are beautiful to me. One day, I decided to capture them while walking downtown to an art show. I was literally walking while I took the shots. This one is my favorite.
Lately ive been doing a lot of reflecting… I am both happy and troubled. The best way I can describe this feeling is a restless peace. Change is coming; I can feel it. I wanted things to change but now I’m excited and terrified at the same time. I feel more dead and more alive than I’ve ever felt in my life, but I would rather feel like this than drift into stagnant living. Whatever’s coming is coming, so I’m reaching out to grab it, to embrace it. This life is a gift and I’m excited for the future and all the wonderful opportunities I have to make something of it. For now all is silent… awaiting…